Tutunmak/Holding On
  • Tutunmak/Holding On

    Three digital prints for windows, hand writing on gallery walls
    Apartment Project
    December 18 – 28, 2009

    For this exhibition, I invited spectators to think about issues related to the concept of “tutunmak/holding on”, to write down their ideas, to bring them to the space, to write them on the gallery wall, and in this way to contribute to the completion of this exhibition. For those who could not come, I asked them to reply with email. To include their ideas, I wrote their messages on the wall.

    Throughout life, I have continually been holding on. I have been holding onto relationships, holding on to jobs, holding on to cultures, holding on as an artist. It often feels that I am just clinging with my fingers and may plunge into unknown territory at any moment. Sometimes I hold on too long. Sometimes I hold on when I should just move on. Sometimes I am right to hold on, but get very tired and need someone else to pull me up. I need someone to take my hand and not let me go. Most people at one time or other have felt the precariousness, anger, frustration, and fragility of trying to hold on in today’s society. What are your ideas about holding on? What does it feel like to hold on? Are you willing to extend a hand to someone else trying to hold on?

    For this exhibition at Apartment Project, located in an area of the city being infiltrated and uprooted due to gentrification, this was the gallery’s contribution:

    “There are things I wanted to do. I wanted to scream. I wanted to live and let live. There were things I wanted to say. I exist and I will exist. I get angry but I don’t give up and I am working for this. I have been pushed around, pushed away, threatened, banished, and infringed upon. I am writing because these things happened and will continue to happen. As I write I am able to hold on, by holding on I am able to write about what is mine. ‘Tutunmak/holding on’ is a stance against accepting, being quiet or leaving. It is an invitation to spectators to think about and to write: to scream in the name of holding on or perhaps to extend a helping hand.”